The Waiting Game

My family and I live in Big Bear Lake, CA. We've been living in the mountains for 10 years. In June after my son graduates from High School we are moving back down to the beach. Right now we are in Limbo Land....my husband works 4 hours away and stays at friends in Carlsbad. I'm here alone with the two darlings....It's hard and lonely....I miss my husband I only see him on weekends. I want to go back to work (I was laid off from the schoold district) But I need to stay here until June. The mountains have always been a little lonely for me, when my children were younger they filled my days with fun activities lots of chaos and good times. Now they are busy leading their own lives, which is great but another transition after all these years of child raising I've sort of lost who I am along the way.

Today is a sad day

Today one more of my cancer children from (carepages) passed away. Two precious children have gone to be with the Lord. Cody who was 12 and now Lindsey who was 5 and a half years old. These families have suffered such mental anguish, and fought such a hard fight for these babies. It's such an injustice that we can't find a cure for these childhood cancers or any cancer for that matter. We really need, some miracles they just didn't come for these families. I suppose they could say that their lives were extended due to the chemo or radiation....but their quality of life was so robbed. Is the answer to put these children through hell, only to have the cancer resurface a year later...I don't know the answer. I know as a parent I want to do everything possible and we have to believe in miracles but what about all those families that don't get miracles. I know it's up to the Lord....but I'm just so overcome with grief for these families. Answers answers I need answers. Please pray for these two families that lost their children this week, I can't imagine their pain.

I'M BEING PHASED OUT

I'm being phased out it's so sad. I have two teens left in the nest. Mandy and Taylor. Taylor will be 18 in July and Mandy will be 14. My job description is as follows: Make son lunch and hand money. Make daughter lunch, talk very little because it annoys them. Don't ask any questions about school, friends, or you get the eye roll. Mandy comes home from school and goes directly to her room, until dinner. Taylor goes skateboarding after school and I don't see him till he needs money again or dinnertime unless he has money and than he eats out. I feel like a leper. I've gone through this before but everytime it hurts.....I've been a stay at home mom way to long.................